Love is nothing but a myth...

The only thing which you can call your own is the 'pain' you carry in your heart... Rest everything is impermanent...

I wish to be free... free as a bird who can fly high in the skies... with no fears, restrictions, insecurities or boundaries... I want to be able to live the way I always wanted to...
I want to breathe the fresh air...I want to smell the lovely flowers... I want to witness the highs of life... I want to view the world from amazing heights...

Will my wishes ever come true?????

There is never really a reason to believe or disbelieve someone or something... It either exists or doesn't exist without any basis so to say.. It is only with time that truth presents itself to us and makes way for a confirmation or riddance of any pre-existing beliefs.

I need to let go - the past, present as well as the future... I need to start afresh! A new beginning implies getting rid of all the excess baggage... But this would imply making a lot of harsh changes to my life. Oh God! Please give me the strength to do as I intend to...

I really miss home... each & every moment... I miss the love, comfort and security of being with my family. But I also know that going back is never an option, no matter what the circumstances... I fully understand their questions & concerns but I have no proper answers...

I have to learn how to fight my battles all alone.. I have to learn to be strong & capable.. I have to work on myself a lot. A personal transformation was always an option that I desperately needed to exercise. But now, it has become a compulsion..
In order to live this life, I have no choice but to change myself into someone I am not...

Days come by much easier now... Either the pain has become accustomed to me or vice versa. Whatsoever it may be, the tears have paused for now. But life continues to be an impossibly enigmatic and rather difficult path to tread..
Emotions still run astray and thoughts just aimlessly float around all the time.. I tend to feel unloved and unwanted here. That my existence makes simply no difference to anyone. With time, I will have all my answers. I just hope they are the ones that I can handle..
I need a purpose - a strong enough purpose that can drive me away from the present mess and towards a meaningful end. My current to-do list isn't convincing at all. Nevertheless, I will have to go along with it for the time being.