December 31, 2008

It's time to say Good-bye, to the year gone by...

Each year happens to be a mix of good & the not-so-good, in varying proportions. 2008 turned out to be a year that tilted more towards the ‘not so good’, in almost every aspect. On this last day, like every other year, I sit down to rewind & review the happenings of the year. After much introspection & deliberation, I have a long list of do’s & don’ts for the coming year. Hope I can successfully meet all the resolutions this time, unlike every other year.. :)

Wishing all my lovely blog-mates a bright, happy, peaceful & safe NEW YEAR!!!
Let’s embrace 2009 with hope & faith in our hearts and spread the message of love & peace the year round... :D

October 14, 2008

Sunrise of my Life..

For every dark sunset that you survive, there is going to be a beautiful Sunrise to welcome you... :)

"Live totally, and live intensely, so that each moment becomes golden and your whole life becomes a series of golden moments. Such a person never dies because she has the Midas touch: whatever she touches becomes gold.... " (Quote by Osho)

September 26, 2008

AN EMPTY BOX...

LOVE... SUPERFICIAL
FRIENDSHIP... FAKE
PEACE... DECEPTIVE
FAITH... MYTHICAL
SMILES... SHALLOW
EMOTIONS... INSINCERE
TEARS... MUTED
DREAMS... WRECKAGE
THOUGHTS... BARREN
MY LIFE IS AN EMPTY BOX....

July 14, 2008

Loose Threads...

There she was, elegantly placed on the wooden chair by the big window, looking out at the skies. There was nothing particularly interesting about the sky or the moon today.
Infact, it was rather dreary & sombre, aptly reflecting her state of mind.
Yet, she looked above, simply coz she lacked the courage to face the battered remnants – the multicoloured threads & the associated/attached varied thoughts resting in her lap.
It wasn’t too long ago that she had been sitting at the same place, cosily wrapped in the silken fabric of her dreams & desires.
It had taken her immense patience, tender care, oodles of love and brilliant imagination to weave the two threads together and create a relationship so exquisitely beautiful.
Ohh! How she looked forward to each day of embellishing the thread work with those beautiful coloured beads n pearls.. How much she cherished the way it caressed her..
Cuddled & comforted her..
But what had gone wrong?
Somewhere, she had been so consumed with the nectar of love and completely blinded by its wondrous pleasures that she failed to notice the loose threads...
Lost in the thought of building a picture perfect relationship, she lost sight of the reality of life..
One loose thread has the capacity to unknot the complete relationship...

July 1, 2008

M bak..

Hello people!! :)
Getting bak to my blog after almost a month.. the scheduled break ws only 15 days.. but i jst couldn't and didn't want to get bak..
It'll probably take me some more time to get bak to writing.. nevertheless, m around to catch up on all the lovely blogs.. :)

June 1, 2008

Away...

Goin to be away for a while.. b bak mid june..
Please Wish me Good luck!! :)

Enjoy people!! n Keep SMiling!! :)

May 21, 2008

Genuine Desires..


Today I unwrapped the box of life
Filled to the brim it was
With worldly gems and jewels
I thought I acquired it all
But my existence is yet so incomplete...
I desire for something more...something genuine
I yearn for a gentle stroke of love
In the times of unfaithful passions
Crave for a speck of truth
In the falsities of words and deeds
Searching for traces of faith
In the web of rationality and logic
Longing for a moment of peace
In the turbulence of minds n hearts
Get me a pure drop of tear
In the murky waters of emotions

Help me..
Time is running out !!!

May 7, 2008

Yet Again...

Not getting the time to write these days..coz of this exam that's seriously driving me crazy... :(
This is a repost.. One of my very early ones..
Something reminded me of my best friend today.. :)
And I thought of posting this bit again..
Yet again……I found myself in agony
n yet again…he was there by my side
Its always been a mystery
I never ever had to reach out to him
I never ever had to wait
He always sensed my pain..
He arrived..lovingly looked at me in the eye
My vision blurred for moments
And then he gently touched my cheek
Stayed there with me for long….
Do not recollect when he withdrew
But as always I had been healed
By Him…..my best friend
He is the Drop of Tear that thrives on me
Others need someone to wipe their tears
I only want my tears to mend my broken heart…………
...my best friend.
I am missing him yet again…………….

April 26, 2008

Tagged!!

Well.... I got tagged for the first time ( by a beautiful lady Solitaire :) )
Hope I can come up with some answers... and hopefully interesting ones!! ;)

8 things I am passionate about...
(but not necessarily in this order)
1. Music
2. Food (Yeah..anything n everything..chinese, italian, north Indian or South Indian..chocolates..ice creams..u name it & I love it...Gosh!! M feeling hungry)
3. Reading
4. Sketching n Painting
5. Writing
6. Love (Sounds strange probably..but m passionate about love.. loving people..anything & everything associated with love)
7. Passionate about my dreams n ambitions..
8. Spirituality

8 things I want to do before I die...

1. Travel the world.. a long list of places n cities I wanna visit
2. Have an exhibition of my paintings & sketches
3. Want to do something extremely special for my parents ..(maybe gift them a world tour)
4. Open a book shop or a Cafe or a Cookies shop..
5. Wanna own a beautiful home with fabulous interiors.. and have all the beautiful people I love with me
6. Want to learn a few things before I die - To play the violin, Salsa..Classical Singing..
7. Wanna meet Sachin Tendulkar
8. Successful career

8 things I say often...
1. Shit!
2. Shut up
3. Oye or Oye hoye
4. Get lost
5. I mean (tend to use it a lot in my sentences)
6. Ohh God
7. Hmmmmm..
8. Gosh

8 books I have read recently...
1. Powers of the Subconscious mind
2. Fooled by Randomness (Started reading it..)
3. My CFA course books ... :(
4. Eleven Minutes (Coelho)
5. Like a flowing river (Coelho)
(These are the only recent ones.. )

8 songs I could listen to over and over again...
1. Jhuki jhuki si nazar (Jagjit Singh)
(well.. I can listen to every ghazal of Jagjit singh over & over again..)
2. Tujhse naraz nahi zindagi (Masoom)
3. Tere bina zindagi se koi shikva toh nahi (Aandhi)
4. Ae kaash ke hum (Kabhi haan kabhi naa)
5. Baatein kuch ankahi si (Life in a Metro)
6. O Re Piya (Aaja Nachle)
7. Yeh jo des hai tera (Swades)
8. My Heart will go on (Celine Dion)

8 things that attract me to my best friends...
1. They are all genuine unique individuals
2. I can be myself with them
3. They can anytime bring a smile on my face
4. Have supported me in my tough times
5. Sharing & caring attitude
6. For tackling me when I am difficult & unreasonable
7. I always get to learn so much from them.
8. They love me for who I am

8 people I think should do this tag...
Well, I don't even know 8 people in bloggersphere.. :(
So, the answer for this one is - 'Not Applicable' :)

April 24, 2008

Happy Birthday My Love!!!

Here's wishing you a veryyyyyyyy Happy Birthdayyyyyyyyyyy!!! :)


I don't recall the moment I fell for this man.. ;) However, if there's anyone I have sincerely and absolutely idolized, it is Sachin Tendulkar. Sayin that he is the best cricketer in the world is certainly stating the obvious. So I wouldn't do that (though I just did..) ;) Unfortunately, I still haven't gained much knowledge about the technicalities of the game, so I really can't comment much about his cricketing strengths. I find his passion and absolute commitment towards the game truly truly inspirational. His love for the game, dedication and determination to excel & surpass himself is exemplary. To me, Cricket means Sachin Tendulkar.
Also, I simply adore him for being such a thorough gentleman on and off the field. Every individual has to go through ups and downs on personal as well as professional fronts. He has had quite a few lean patches careerwise. When a person achieves success of such magnaminous proportions, people not just expect him to sustain it but everytime create a new landmark of success. But we forget, if success is natural, failure is inevitable. He has always gracefully carried the enormous & burden of the whole country's expectations with such ease and grace. Only letting his work speak for him. All my love & best wishes to you..
I really really really really wanna meet him someday (and if possible give him a huge tight hug).. Hope my wish is fulfilled... :) Amen!

My favourite pic of Sachin - :D Ain't he simply adorable?

April 13, 2008

Have you looked at the mirror closely??

(**Repost**)
Every now and then, the mirror compels me to confront myself..
Unlike the alive beings, it is completely pretence proof.
It smirks at the fake smile I offer….
ruthlessly reveals the creases of pain on the face..
i can even see the unknown tears absurdly dance in the eyes waiting for their turn…
while the dried ones have left smudges so conspicuous now….
the artificial lotions n potions do nothing to conceal the angst….
I shudder at my own ghastly image ……..
it gets unbearable and the very moment I decide to run away
there is a flash of light ...a blur…
then, I see myself again but with a fresh reflection….
a smile extends on the face that is so pure…
skin sparkles with innocence...
eyes that twinkle with hope….
their crystal waters shimmer with beautiful dreams…
Life is like a pendulum that oscillates between agony and ecstasy….
and so does my existence……. :)

April 12, 2008

Urrrgggggghhhhhhh!!!

Does love make people selfish??? if so, why?
Why do people become so self-centred & obssessed when they are in love? They see nothing & feel nothing except love & the one they are in love with... at one level, it is all nice n mushy n romantic n great..but at another level, it implies a high level of insensitivity towards the other people, who have been with them through thick n thin.. supported them in their lonely moments..
Funnily, I lost many of my friends, thanks to the love bug..
Anyhow, cheers to them and their love..

(Can't believe I am writing this..but what the heck, I am really pissed off... )

April 8, 2008

Each One has its Own Tale


"Each one has its Own Tale...Let me tell you mine"

How can I possibly forget those eyes? The reason I exist.. Devastating..Mesmerising..Serene..Earthy brown..
A mere glance was enough for just about anyone to see her soul shine through..
Only I knew of the immense depths with those exquisitely wrapped secrets..
Even the oceans paled in comparison..
I knew they were longing for a special someone..
Craving for those piercing gazes and the sensual warmth..
and the secrets would softly melt in a moment and pour out..
Making way for Love.. so pure..poetic..poignant..
Both of us understood the impossibility & impracticality of it all..
However, Our Love did not - My Love for her & Her Love for "Him"
(He who was still a figment of her imagination)..
Our love never left us alone.. Always stood there..
Stubborn, sulking and pining...
Relentlessly striving to defy all logic..to dismantle any and every barrier..and even disobey the destined..

Lured by the charms of the unknown, she continued to weave the web of virgin dreams..
only to find herself trapped soon...
In an attemp to bail her out, Countless precious pearls had slipped on those warm pink cheeks..
Each one having its own tale..
But I am special..Do you know why?
Coz I am the silent tear that chose not to part.. but to live with my Woman for her entire life..
In her beautiful eyes..Ain't I the luckiest? :)
(Dedicated to all those lovely ladies with resolute faith in the existence of Love... striving & struggling in their pursuit for true real love... )
- A Silent drop of tear

March 31, 2008

Wish I knew...


I faced the fierce sunrays for hours thinking
It would dispel the darkness within
Wish I knew the candle of hope was waiting to be rekindled…

I soaked myself in the heavy rain thinking
It would rinse away the blemishes on the soul
Wish I knew I needed the willingness to change...

I immersed myself in the crowds thinking
It would take away the loneliness pangs
Wish I knew the worth of a genuine relationship...

I gazed at the rainbow for long thinking
It would lend colors to my life
Wish I knew I chose the palette of gray n blacks...

I let the winds slap me on the face thinking
It would be a punishment for the immoral deeds
Wish I knew I had to pay off as long as I lived...

I walked on the snow barefoot thinking
It would treat the wounds and scars
Wish I knew they could never be healed...

I squandered away all the time thinking
There would be several others to rejoice
I wish I knew this was the last moment
I wish I knew this was the last moment…


March 25, 2008

Random Thots!


why do some people have it so easy in life... and why is it that a lot of people live through their lives miserably despite all the sincere efforts... do we really get what we deserve??.. or is it that we deserve only what we get... maybe, its only a matter of one's perspective towards life and nothing else...

Wish I had a magic wand to set certain things right for myself and a lot of people around me... :)

March 19, 2008

Untitled..

Salaam Namaste - T...

Heard this song after quite some time today... surprisingly i felt my eyes moisten and voila!! those drops quietly fell on my cheeks one by one... I dont know why it happened...

The music evoked a strange, vaccous feeling... as if m surrounded by a zone of emptiness all around... Within few moments, the space got filled with certain memories, the ones I had gotten riddance of.. atleast that is what I thought.. and gradually, plenty of other thoughts took over..

There wasnt any sort of direct connect of the song to what I went through or what I have been going through.. it just made me feel lonely.. I longed for someone to say these words to me.. to comfort me, make me feel protected & loved, to hold me tightly in his arms & say that everything is going to be just fine...

It wasn't about feeling weak or incapable of handling the situations & struggles in my life. It wasn't even about looking out for someone to sympathise or empathise with me. I am proud of the fact that I have developed the strength & patience to manage myself and my life very well. It was just like a rare moment of 'craving'... I wish it was one of those conventional desires for an ice-cream or a chocolate or anything for that matter which I could have satisfied somehow.. it is the thirst for so-called genuine & meaningful wants which can't be quenched so easily. But it was just what my soul ordered for today... I simply shrugged my shoulders, wiped my tears and got back to work.. the longing remains...

March 15, 2008

Secrets of Love!!!!


(Came across this article somewhere.... )

The First Secret - The Power Of Thought
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Love begins with our thoughts. We become what we think about. Loving thoughts create loving experiences and loving relationships. Affirmations can change our beliefs and thoughts about others and ourselves. If we want to love someone, we need to consider their needs and desires. Thinking about your ideal partner will help you recognize her when you meet her.

The Second Secret - The Power Of Respect
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You cannot love anyone or anything unless you first respect them. The first person you need to respect is yourself. To begin to gain self-respect asks yourself, “What do I respect about myself?” To gain respect for others, even those you may dislike, ask yourself “What do I respect about them?”

The Third Secret - The Power Of Giving
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If you want to receive love, all you have to do is give it! The more love you give, the more you will receive. To love is to give of yourself freely and unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness. Before committing to a relationship ask not what the other person will be able to give to you, but rather what will you be able to give them. The secret formula of ahappy, lifelong, loving relationship is to always focus on what you can give instead of what you can take.

The Fourth Secret - The Power Of Friendship
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To find a true love, you must first find a true friend. Love does not consist of gazing into each other’s eyes, but rather looking outward together in the same direction. To love someone completely you must love them for who they are, not what they look like. Friendship is the soil through which love’s seeds grow. If you want to bring love into a relationship, you must first bring friendship.

The Fifth Secret - The Power Of Touch
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Touch is one of the most powerful expressions of love, breaking down barriers and bonding relationships. Touch changes our physical and emotional states and makes us more receptive to love.

The Sixth Secret - The Power Of Letting Go
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If you love something, let it free. If it comes back to you it’s yours, if it doesn’t, it never was. Even in a loving relationship, people need their own space. If we want to learn to love, we must first learn to forgive and let go of past hurts and grievances. Love means letting go of our fears, prejudices, egos and conditions. “Today I let go of all my fears, the past has no power over me - today is the beginning of a new life.”

The Seventh Secret - The Power Of Communication
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When we learn to communicate openly and honestly, life changes. To love someone is to communicate with them. Let the people you love know that you love them and appreciate them. Never be afraid to say those three magic words: “I Love you.” Never let an opportunity pass to praise someone. Always leave someone you love with a loving word - it could be the last time you see them. If you were about to die but could make telephone calls to the people you loved, who would you call, what would you say and..why are you waiting?

The Eighth Secret - The Power Of Commitment
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If you want to have love in abundance, you must be committed to it, and that commitment will be reflected in your thoughts and actions. Commitment is the true test of love. If you want to have loving relationships, you must be committed to loving relationships. When you are committed to someone or something, quitting is never an option. Commitment distinguishes a fragile relationship from a strong one.

The Ninth Secret - The Power Of Passion
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Passion ignites love and keeps it alive. Lasting passion does not come through physical attraction alone; it comes from deep commitment, enthusiasm, interest and excitement. Passion can be recreated by recreating past experiences when you felt passionate. Spontaneity and surprises produce passion. The essence of love and happiness are the same; all we need to do is to live each day with passion.

The Tenth Secret - The Power Of Trust
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Trust is essential in all loving relationships. Without it one person becomes suspicious, anxious and fearful and the other person feels wrapped and emotionally suffocated. You cannot love someone completely unless you trust them completely. Act as if your relationship with the person you love will never end. One of the ways you can tell whether a person is right for you is to ask yourself, “Do I trust them completely and unreservedly?” If the answer is “no”, think carefully before making a commitment.

March 13, 2008


Its 1 A.M. ... m too tired to write..
succha lot of work pending... phewww!!
mujhe bahut ninni aayi hai... mummyyyyyyy!!!!

March 11, 2008

Khamaj.mp3

One of my most favorite songs...yeah!! the voice is simply awesome.. But I truly love the song for the emotions it expresses and evokes... m mesmerized like always!! :)

(I miss you....)

March 8, 2008

Defeated..


"Defeated"... Yes, we have been defeated.. In the last10 months, I didnt even let this word cross my mind coz I had full conviction and absolute faith in the cause we were fighting for. The faith still stands strong & unfazed. But the bottomline is a battle cannot be fought only on the basis of thought & spirit.


It isnt an easy task to fight for justice in any realm of life and this fact wasnt unknown to us. We let the overwhelming spirit of truth & righteousness prevail and decided to take the plunge. We chose to fight the demons with every ounce of strength and courage in our body and soul. Can't really say about my fellow beings but me & my family are a part of this mission coz we owe it to that one man who gave us everything - a reason to live... the judgement of right and wrong... ability to take decisions... the awareness of our real purpose...the meaning of life... the light of faith... the path to spirituality & bliss... bountiful blessings & enormous love...

We fought for 'him' and for 'ourselves'... its one and the same thing...coz the invisible lines that separate us were getting blurred with time.

It was never the will or the spirit to battle it out that was lacking... it was those seemingly unimportant peripheral areas that brought about the doom. Sadly, truth doesnt find many takers. We have made it a basic human tendency to turn a blind eye to all the wrongs happening around us.. Worse, people willingly join the evil brigade, lured by momentary gains.. After all, its a commercial society that we live in... everything has a price tag attached to it... I personally know hordes of people who put themselves on sale and eventually stood on the other side of the line. It is the human and non-human resources that fell short of... Turned every stone to win every form of support... And not to forget, the corrupt politicians & the rotten judicial system hit the final nail in the coffin.. Here we stand today, just a handful of people... demoralized, shattered, heartbroken...


As I am writing this, my words keep oscillating between the past & the present tense... Somewhere, deep down I am struggling to accept the facts in front of my eyes... and of course, the ray of hope hasn't extinguished yet... have to keep that alive somehow..

Not letting the tears drop out of my eyes... a weak moment is the last thing I want... let the pain prick me every second... do not want this defeat to get erased out of my memory... rest, I leave upto you Lord...Amen!!

March 6, 2008


"Ssssssshhhhhhhhhhh.....!!!! Finger on your lips... I want pindrop silence..." I put on that school principal kinda stern look and a somewhat authoritative tone and asked my mind to just shutup... Have been totally fedup of its childish mischief and melodrama in last few months.. Got some lovely moments of peace today... sigh..finally!!!!!! It felt so nice n quiet within.. simply loved it.. :)

My crazy lil mind is always upto some devilish prank. Relentlessly trying to interfere in whatever I do..and whatever I dont do.. Thank god!! He took to my scolding this time around... ;)

I just dont wanna think anything for a few days.. Taking a break from my 'thought process' ..

Gonna be a mute spectator for a while.. the objective would be to - Look Observe & Assimilate without any kinda reasoning, logic or rationality gushing in.. Let's how it goes...

March 4, 2008

Missed you...


Whoah!!! Its been a while I put something on my blog...

Did I run out of topics or devoid of thoughts?? Neither.. Its not even paucity of time.. just the inability to structure my thoughts... coz there's simply too much to handle.. work, studies, health and an important issue which is gradually turning sore... and a lot more... So, I just keep wildly jumping n hopping from one subject to another..

But I truly missed you my dear blog... :) ..my bestest buddy at all times.. You always quietly n patiently listen to me... very sweetly assimilate all the crap I offer.. :) hehehehe...
Promise to try and be regular now on...


February 15, 2008

Letting it go..


So far, it has been people saying good-byes to me...sometimes silent...sometimes verbal...often subtle...rarely open n direct.. Now, I am making an exception..not just for the heck of it.. moreso, as a need of the hour. I am making extremely sincere attempts to steer my life into the direction I always wanted. Have been trying to do that for long..but its not going to be half-baked attempts anymore. In this process of revamping my life, I chose to say good-byes to a lot of friends. The list is so long that it makes me wonder for a few moments..What was I upto all this while? Am I so naive n foolish that everytime I end up being a victim of the famous Dishonest Backstabbers Group?

Anyhow, Let me just do what I wanted to... and waste no more of my time.

Goodbye to all those lucky people out there!!! Thank you so much for teaching me the most crucial..most painful n most important lessons of life... I think its much better to live alone with some integrity n self respect than be an emotional slave to those who just do not care..

(Luckiest are those...who find genuine friends in life... )

February 5, 2008

Put an end to this Wait...


I have been trying to contact you for so many days..rather, months... infact..its been years...but you are always 'not reachable' or 'unavailable' .... Is it that you no more wish to communicate with me? Is it something I said or did? Or Is it that I am lacking in my efforts to get to you? What is it?? Tell me please... Hah!! I can be so dumb n idiotic at times (u r probably thinking 'almost all the time'..but we can save that for some other discussion) ...how would you possibly tell me the reason for not talking to me.. whn you rnt talking to me in the first place..


I need you.. I desperately need you.. Not to heal my pain..Not at all asking you to sort out my problems.. not even to grant me 'this wish' or 'that wish' ...Just want to talk to you.. one on one..So far, it was only about ME.. What I want...n How I want it..How much life sucks..No matter whatever you give me, its never never enough..But now, I want it to be about 'US'..I want to hear your comforting voice..Please come back!! Say all that you wish to...Talk to me!! Guide me...Lead me...Motivate me...Support me...Embrace me.. Just be with me My Lord!!! I cant seem to find you anywhere..anywhich way.... :(

January 28, 2008

On my way to BLISS...


(Sigh....) Each breath feels a bit heavy...
each moment passes by with some effort...
Awful lot of noise in the surroundings...
Volumes n Volumes of thoughts continuously pouring in...
Choked with overwhelming emotions...
Cry my heart out till the last drop of pain drains out...
I want to break free....
Unshackle the chains of fears...
those unwanted sentiments...
There isnt a place for them anymore... No more....


I want to immerse myself in the softness of my soul...
Wish to be wrapped in the fabric of silken dreams...
Feel the elixir of passion seductively slide down my throat...
Be Intoxicated with Love...
Let the light of divinity caress my eyelids...
Unravel my essence & Discover my Bliss....