Nothing but Questions..

Is it the beginning or the end..

Or something in between?

Friendship or Love..

Or a relationship devoid of a label?

The burdensome past or thr future so dark

Or be in the Empty Present ?

Do I wish to Live or Die..

Isn't it just the same??

(I miss everything..the smiles..the laughter..the names..the chats..conversations..the warmth..the....everything!! Its so lonely once again...)

There is so much that can be said, simply by not saying anything... Silence speaks and speak volumes it does.. I wonder what to make of this silence... It conveys something meaningful..But I wish I wasn't this naive.. (Maybe it is asking me to quietly drift away..never to return..? Maybe! I got no other option)

Calling out to YOU...

Its like fighting a lost battle...Whatever be the outcome, I find myself on the losing end..

When I asked you for something, you chose not to give...And today, when that something walked upto my doorstep..I shut the doors..Immense fears and pain have engulfed me...Why My Lord?? Why do you constantly remind me that I am not meant to be happy.. Am being punished for which sin? I am calling out to you from the most penetrating depths of my soul..Please 'G' !! I demand an answer.. Why did you leave me in such a state? Why did you go away? I do realise that your love and blessings are always with me..But that is not enough..

Please comfort me when the tears flow endlessly..Please place your hand on my forehead when I am in agony... Please hug me coz I am lonely.. Please talk to me...guide me..show me the way..Noone can do that for me!! Only you understand the mess within and around me..Only you!!! Else, take me away !!!

I choose... Silence...

When I look for silence,

I find silence

Inside my soul.

When I look for my soul,

I find my soul

Inside my silence.

My silence bridges the gulf between my life's success and my life's failure.

My silence does not magnify my defects.

Nor does it connive at them.

My silence transforms my defects into strength indomitable.
My silence is a climbing flame that warms my world of despair.

My silence is my inner light.

No problem of mine can defy solution.

My silence is a selfless distributor of joy to ever-widening horizons.
In my silence I become a man of sterling character, a prolific writer, a voracious reader, a divine lover, a profound inspirer and a triumphant liberator.
In my deep silence I never become a victim to ignorance,

the greatest calamity that can befall any human being. In my growing silence,

I am convinced that even as a man on this earth I shall be able to reach heights, transcendental, divine.

My glowing silence alone can accelerate my Godward march.

(Words by Sri Chinmoy)