February 15, 2008

Letting it go..


So far, it has been people saying good-byes to me...sometimes silent...sometimes verbal...often subtle...rarely open n direct.. Now, I am making an exception..not just for the heck of it.. moreso, as a need of the hour. I am making extremely sincere attempts to steer my life into the direction I always wanted. Have been trying to do that for long..but its not going to be half-baked attempts anymore. In this process of revamping my life, I chose to say good-byes to a lot of friends. The list is so long that it makes me wonder for a few moments..What was I upto all this while? Am I so naive n foolish that everytime I end up being a victim of the famous Dishonest Backstabbers Group?

Anyhow, Let me just do what I wanted to... and waste no more of my time.

Goodbye to all those lucky people out there!!! Thank you so much for teaching me the most crucial..most painful n most important lessons of life... I think its much better to live alone with some integrity n self respect than be an emotional slave to those who just do not care..

(Luckiest are those...who find genuine friends in life... )

February 5, 2008

Put an end to this Wait...


I have been trying to contact you for so many days..rather, months... infact..its been years...but you are always 'not reachable' or 'unavailable' .... Is it that you no more wish to communicate with me? Is it something I said or did? Or Is it that I am lacking in my efforts to get to you? What is it?? Tell me please... Hah!! I can be so dumb n idiotic at times (u r probably thinking 'almost all the time'..but we can save that for some other discussion) ...how would you possibly tell me the reason for not talking to me.. whn you rnt talking to me in the first place..


I need you.. I desperately need you.. Not to heal my pain..Not at all asking you to sort out my problems.. not even to grant me 'this wish' or 'that wish' ...Just want to talk to you.. one on one..So far, it was only about ME.. What I want...n How I want it..How much life sucks..No matter whatever you give me, its never never enough..But now, I want it to be about 'US'..I want to hear your comforting voice..Please come back!! Say all that you wish to...Talk to me!! Guide me...Lead me...Motivate me...Support me...Embrace me.. Just be with me My Lord!!! I cant seem to find you anywhere..anywhich way.... :(