Wish I knew...

I faced the fierce sunrays for hours thinking
It would dispel the darkness within
Wish I knew the candle of hope was waiting to be rekindled…

I soaked myself in the heavy rain thinking
It would rinse away the blemishes on the soul
Wish I knew I needed the willingness to change...

I immersed myself in the crowds thinking
It would take away the loneliness pangs
Wish I knew the worth of a genuine relationship...

I gazed at the rainbow for long thinking
It would lend colors to my life
Wish I knew I chose the palette of gray n blacks...

I let the winds slap me on the face thinking
It would be a punishment for the immoral deeds
Wish I knew I had to pay off as long as I lived...

I walked on the snow barefoot thinking
It would treat the wounds and scars
Wish I knew they could never be healed...

I squandered away all the time thinking
There would be several others to rejoice
I wish I knew this was the last moment
I wish I knew this was the last moment…